Tastules and niblets
The Sads

A couple of nights ago, I had a dream in which I returned to the house of my earliest childhood memories. What I remember most about the dream was that the house was fundamentally, structurally different than I remembered, and that I cried almost the whole time I was in the house. I wasn’t scared or sad, just crying with no emotional affect.

I woke up and thought it odd, but didn’t ascribe any deeper meaning to it. Brains are marvelously complex and strange, after all.

Then, today, I was doing my reddit thing and came across a thread asking what disease/condition people (ostensibly medical professionals) fear getting most. About two-thirds of the way down the page, someone talks about the excruciating pain of pancreatic cancer patients and I lost it.

My dad never let on that he was in pain, but he wouldn’t have wanted me to know anyway. I started thinking about his dying process: how he stopped eating, talking, and walking, then slipping between sleep states and fugue states until his body died. I remembered how helpless I felt as he slipped away too quickly and slowly at the same time. And I cried.

I miss my dad so much, and it’s not what I expected at all. I function and my life goes on. It’s like I forget that I can’t hear him laugh ever again. And then I think of him, or see someone who could be him from the back, and the remembering floods in.

I understand my dream. You can never go home again.

How is it that I can’t pull off a neat French braid for school when I have all the grooming tools and all of the time, but I can crack one out with my fingers in three minutes when she’s going to play in the rain? Am I overthinking it somehow? Don’t get me wrong, there’s room to improve, but this is much better than my usual results.

1. Done.
2. This was a gross underestimation; I’ve logged 90 already. 
3. Working on it.
4. Being mindful.
5. Got my fabric stash and machine ready to go…whenever I don’t have a million more important things to do.
6. I can do my own hair but Phia’s is a little trickier. 
7. Um, there are a LOT of trees in my backyard and the beard doesn’t like the idea of a front garden. So, maybe?
8. Just have to agree where we’re building a run.
9. Does this count?
10. Easy peasy. Phia and me both.
11. Work in progress, as ever.
12. Haha, haven’t even thought about this one. Busy year so far.
13. Yes. Yesyesyes. 1/2 gallon minimum 90% of the time. 
14. a.k.a. give up control a little. It won’t kill you.

1. Done.
2. This was a gross underestimation; I’ve logged 90 already.
3. Working on it.
4. Being mindful.
5. Got my fabric stash and machine ready to go…whenever I don’t have a million more important things to do.
6. I can do my own hair but Phia’s is a little trickier.
7. Um, there are a LOT of trees in my backyard and the beard doesn’t like the idea of a front garden. So, maybe?
8. Just have to agree where we’re building a run.
9. Does this count?
10. Easy peasy. Phia and me both.
11. Work in progress, as ever.
12. Haha, haven’t even thought about this one. Busy year so far.
13. Yes. Yesyesyes. 1/2 gallon minimum 90% of the time.
14. a.k.a. give up control a little. It won’t kill you.

Family plane selfie!

Family plane selfie!

lovealwaysangelairene:

thecorpsebrideiwillneverbe:

jah-feel:

I’m sorry but I had to reblog this. This book is basically the book I needed as a kid instead of realizing all of those things the hard way~

My future children will have this

Must get this book.

Every child should have a copy.

playboydreamz:

playboydreamz:

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www.khanacademy.org
“The Khan Academy is an organization on a mission. We’re a not-for-profit with the goal of changing education for the better by providing a free world-class education for anyone anywhere.”

www.coursera.org
“We are a social entrepreneurship company that partners with the top universities in the world to offer courses online for anyone to take, for free. We envision a future where the top universities are educating not only thousands of students, but millions. Our technology enables the best professors to teach tens or hundreds of thousands of students.”

http://www.udacity.com/
Learn. Think. Do.
Higher Education for Free

http://www.panaceauniversity.org/
Panacea is a registered non-profit organisation, dedicated to educational study and research. The Panacea University is the world’s first open source online university.

www.alison.com
“ALISON provides a new world of free online learning opportunity”
UNESCO Director General, Dr Irina Bokova
“ALISON opens up the world of knowledge offering new, flexible, and exciting ways to learn”
Dept. of Innovation, Universities & Skills, UK GOVT
“A Creative Model of Open Education for a Global Economy”
New York Times

http://www.w3schools.com/
At w3schools.com you will learn how to make a website. We offer free tutorials in all web development technologies.
Select a tutorial from the menu to the left.

http://www.codecademy.com/learn
Tracks are series of courses grouped to help you master a topic or language. Choose one to start learning!

http://ocw.mit.edu/
MIT OpenCourseWare Free Online Classes

http://academicearth.org/

Educators, need a resource for setting up a course online?
www.moodle.org
Moodle is an Open Source Course Management System (CMS), also known as a Learning Management System (LMS) or a Virtual Learning Environment (VLE). It has become very popular among educators around the world as a tool for creating online dynamic web sites for their students. To work, it needs to be installed on a web server somewhere, either on one of your own computers or one at a web hosting company.

www.zeri.org
Zero Emissions Research and Initiatives (ZERI) is a global network of creative minds, seeking solutions to the ever increasing problems of the world.
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Take part in their free educational course.

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Above is an excerpt from ‘Personhood’ by Lauren Zuniga, which can  be viewed here

While changing my clothes, I tossed my old bra to the side and was surprised by a loud “YA-HOO-EY!” My discarded undergarment landed in just the right way to trigger one of Voyeur Elmo’s motion activated catchphrases. I’m glad he had something nice to say, instead of just laughing.

While changing my clothes, I tossed my old bra to the side and was surprised by a loud “YA-HOO-EY!” My discarded undergarment landed in just the right way to trigger one of Voyeur Elmo’s motion activated catchphrases. I’m glad he had something nice to say, instead of just laughing.

thymelock:

a reminder to please please please let me know if i’ve been gross or something because forreal

the struggle to unlearn shit is real as fuck and i make mistakes

i’m not perfect and i still do gross shit and i’m working on being a better person and creating safe places for people

i see so many posts that are like “ahhh a friend of mine did something gross and i don’t know how to tell them” like if i’m ever that person please let me know

r3b3x:

luke-and-alis-mommy:

parkerzane:

darrynek:

is this supposed to change my mind because it didn’t

if he wanted it pronounced like that, he should have spelled it like that. That’s what the peanut butter people did.

i’ve always said it like “jif”

Ggggiiiiiiifffff

I don’t even care. It’s hard-g “gif” for me because it’s “graphics interchange format”, not “jraphics interchange format”.

r3b3x:

luke-and-alis-mommy:

parkerzane:

darrynek:

is this supposed to change my mind because it didn’t

if he wanted it pronounced like that, he should have spelled it like that. That’s what the peanut butter people did.

i’ve always said it like “jif”

Ggggiiiiiiifffff

I don’t even care. It’s hard-g “gif” for me because it’s “graphics interchange format”, not “jraphics interchange format”.